To Purge

So I decided to look up the definition of PURGE. According to "dictionary.com" the meaning is "to rid of whatever is impure or undesirable; cleanse; purify." OK, then! Boy - if that didn't hit the nail on the head I don't know what would! See the funny - or not - thing is that God pretty much gave me this word, purge, three times in just a matter of days. Now, being one of faith, I take the whole three thing pretty seriously. I am not one who is much into the whole numerology of things - but when it comes to God and giving me lessons...I think 3 is of significance!
So how does one purge? I know it's not easy. My first thought always goes to someone who binges and purges...and I always think - yuck! I have no desire to throw up if I don't have to! There is nothing worse than that if you ask me! I had terrible morning sickness with both of my daughters and might have had one more child if being sick and hanging over the toilet was guaranteed not to happen again! Hence the reason I only have two children!
So to purge requires ridding oneself of whatever is impure or undesirable. Yikes. I have plenty of undesirable stuff - and not just in all those boxes that are stacked to the ceiling of my garage waiting for me to open them. God is showing me some things about myself that I certainly desire to be rid of. Some things that have been part of who I am for over 30 years. So now the question is how...how do I rid myself of the things that have kept me from becoming who God designed me to be - that keep me from my true authentic self. And do I even want to meet her?

Letting it go...

“Sometimes you have to let everything go—purge yourself. If you are unhappy with anything—whatever is bringing you down—get rid of it. Because you will find that when you are free, your true creativity, your true self comes out.”
— Tina Turner

So I just spent the better part of this weekend moving. After living in a rental for 18 months - that was costing me a small fortune... I was fortunate enough to be able to purchase a home for myself. Two years ago if anyone had told me that I would be a single parent AND purchasing my first home(as a single person) I would have told them they were nuts! So anyway...back to the moving...
I have a lot of stuff! A LOT! Now I have managed to justify it - we lived in a very large home and we had all of our childhood things, and I have two kids, and I love to decorate for Christmas, and blah, blah, blah! You would think that moving it from the large home into the rental would have taught me a lesson - not so much! My garage became the storage unit - and I should have spent this summer sifting through it - but at that point I think it was still too fresh and too hard. I was overwhelmed. I never intended to move it AGAIN! There is so much - well, just junk!
So 10 of my friends from church and work came and carried all my JUNK into the new house. It is all stacked up in the garage...and there is plenty in the house too! Not what I would have preferred but - here it is! I have this lovely home, that is all mine - the colors I want - will eventually be decorated the way I want...but all this STUFF! So when I read that quote by Tina Turner - I thought - YEP! Gotta purge! Here I am trying to empty my physical AND emotional suitcases...and Tina Turner speaks to me! Purging...not something I have ever done but I am about to learn more!